School sucks

I think that I've been driving everyone else mad with this shit all week, and so I've decided to give them a break and tell you guys about it instead. 

I hate sixth form. 
I hate everything about it; I hate that I have to ask permission to have a driving lesson during my free period, I hate being there an hour early in the morning, I hate waiting for the bus in the freezing cold for 15-20 minutes every night, I hate leaving in the dark and coming home in the dark, I hate how the roof leaks and the common room stinks like damp and warm food, I hate the bitch of a Textiles teacher whose room I have to walk through to get to Photography, I hate that I'm the only person in my year doing Photography and that next year I'll be the only person in the school doing it, because they aren't running the course next year, I hate my stupid locker and how temperamental the lock is.

But most of all, I hate the fact that nobody talks to me outside of lesson - apart from the four girls that I came with at the start of the year. People will say hello to me in the corridor, or speak to me during lesson, but once that bell goes it's like I don't exist to them - nice, huh?

Maybe it's me, I'm shy as Hell and don't like making the effort with new people because I don't think that they want to talk to me.

So, I've applied to go to college next year. I want to carry on with my English and Psychology A Levels, but drop Photography and Chemistry and take up Textiles instead. College have said that I can go, and I may even be able to do all the Textiles AS and A Level in one year, so I won't even be a year behind everyone else!

The only thing that's holding me back, is what if I don't make any friends next year either? What if I go through my whole life always on the verge and never feeling like I belong ever again? It's only now that I've begun to realise just how much I felt at home in Year 11 - I've never been the new girl, and I went to the local secondary school. This year has been a huge upheaval for me, and I don't know if swapping will actually improve things at all.

So, my options?

1. Stay where I am
2. Go to college (keeping English and Psychology and taking up Textiles)
3. Go to college and do a BTEC/re-start A Levels
4. Get a job

I'm willing to take advice from just about anyone right now, so what do you guys think I should do?

And if you've only just realised how much of a loser I am, I'm sorry for any disillusions.

Friends

Better late than never, right?


My friends are some of the most important people in my life, they give me support and advice when I need it, but they're also an endless source of entertainment. We've had so many good times together, more than I could possibly list in a single blog post, and I'm sure that we'll have many more to come.
I'm not the greatest person when it comes to making friends, I can be shy and awkward around people that I don't know too well, mostly because I want to make a good impression and I don't want to look like an idiot.
Next year however, we're going our separate ways, and although I have every intention to stay in touch, I'm pretty sure that we'll drift apart all too soon. I said that I'd always keep in touch with a girl I used to go dancing with, we were great friends at one point, but we don't even go on Facebook chat any more - I only keep up to date with her through our mutual friends that still dance. So, with that in mind, I'm nervous about losing touch with my current friends. And what if I don't make any new ones next year? 
But we've all agreed to one thing; we're going to make this summer count. Whether we go shopping, to the cinema or just watch movies at each other's houses, we're going to make an extra effort to see as much of each other as we possible can, and seize the moment and any opportunities that may come our way.


I'm sorry that this post has been a bit dull and soppy, hopefully tomorrow's G post will bit a bit perkier!